Who are you for Yourself?

Snap Snippet: A cup of coffee I had at Monorail Cafe in Seoul, South Korea.

 

   There will come certain moments in life where we must answer a nagging question the subconscious fervently asks. 

            Who are you for Yourself?

       Lately I've been pondering a plausible answer to describe my identity outside of work, beyond the laurels of career. I've been in deep thought trying to describe myself who I am as a daughter, as an aunt, as a sister, as a friend, as a lover, as a Christian, and as a person I want myself to connect with.

            I do not know.

        It scared me that I cannot describe myself beyond work duties. Am I that engrossed in my career that it is the only version I can identify myself with? Ask who I am as a teacher, as an employee, and as a member of the workforce. I can respond that I am workaholic, excellent, efficient, dedicated, innovative, a yes-person to a fault, attentive to details, fluent, expressive, team player, rational. 

            Wake up.

        Life really humbles us as we age. 29 years on Earth and it is just now that I know for sure there is more to me. I can be more for me. I have been gravely mistaken for only fitting in the box I know I can fit, but it took a toll on who I am for myself. I realized, I wouldn't want to be with me if I have known me at this state.

        Who do you want to be for Yourself?

        Now, I am taking an introspective journey of finding myself; healing my fears and worries so I can become the person I want to be for me: assertive, dedicated to being kind, fluent enough to express my emotions for peace of mind, and a God-fearing daughter, aunt, sister, friend, lover, and a Christian.

        I want to be someone I would want to have coffee with.